Family Time..Season

This post is for all of my Beautiful Sisters and Brothers who may feel alone during the “Holiday Season” what call Family Time Season :-).

Please know you are NEVER alone!

I am a Lone Wolf by nature but sometimes even I feel alone. I am here to tell you to honor yourself, first , second, third and always…

If you feel like being around people, then go ahead and find some folks to have good time with and when you have had enough, remove yourself. You are not obligated to stay longer than you want to. If you decide you want to spend time with just yourself, do it! Enjoy your company, laugh, cry, rest…do whatever you feel like doing in the moment. Perhaps you are like me and want to do both; be with others for a while and spend time with just yourself for a while…do it!

Loneliness is a feeling occurring when we hold on to something  or someone that was but will never be again.

I’ve taught myself to look forward to new experiences, new idea, new people…it helps me relieve the feeling of loneliness I used to carry with me way too often. Try it; teach yourself to look forward to what each New Day has to offer.

So during this time when it seems as though everyone has someone, remember you are YOUR most important someone; act accordingly!

Side Bar: Family is not about who you are linked to by blood; Family is a person or people who love, support, encourage and protect you no matter what circumstances may arise. Be with the person or people who make you feel loved BUT, only if you want to. 😉

To Beautiful Spirits reading this with an abundance of loved ones, please remember to reach out to those you know may not have the same.

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To you all I wish many great blessings and peace during this Family Time Season.

 

Sending you my Love,

Ayana Theresa

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As I drove in this evening, the sky appeared as tumultuous as I’ve felt today; we’re usually in sync…
It was dark, stormy looking, bright in some areas and difficult to read what may have been stirring in the clouds. At one point the Sun, as powerful as it is looked as if it was being overpowered by the clouds. Some of the clouds had sharp edges and some were super thick as if about to burst open releasing an amount of water we could never prepare ourselves for. Many of the clouds resembled mountains, bluish-white in appearance making me think of and miss home…
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After feeling as if I was riding waves most of this New Day, unsure of what I was processing within, I finally felt at peace as I gazed at the sky. In this instance I understood that I am never alone. The sky often mirrors my grief, my joy, my chaos… During periods of grief, chaos it storms and as the rain and vibrations from the thunder and lightning cleanse the Earth, my heart, my spirit are also cleansed making way for a clear sky…joy.
I’m known as the girl who walks in between the raindrops because when it rains I seldom use an umbrella, instead I welcome beautiful, healing energy of the rain.
Before leaving this morning I felt a pull in my heart center but it was not painful, more like making room for new beginning (makes sense since New Moon cycle has just completed); I wasn’t worried. At some point this afternoon the pulled became uncomfortable and I knew it wasn’t about new beginning, instead I allowed something meaningless to trouble me. It wasn’t until I met with the Sky that I was able to understand, work through it and release the uncomfortable feeling in my heart center. No storm but the rain came just as I began to release the negative energy.
New beginning is NOT synonymous for “easy process” and often something within you mourns the “old” whether good, bad or indifferent. It’s up to you to be mindful of this and keep moving forward as you embrace your new beginning. I don’t know what lies ahead (our Universe still refuses to provide a map to navigate life LoL) but I refuse to just tread water and stay where I am, I refuse to deny myself opportunities to experience and grow, I refuse to settle for a lesser life and best of all… I refuse to give up on ME!
Keep moving forward Beautiful Spirits!
Sending you Love, Peace & Blessings
SereneNSassySoul

Love Rekindled

Writing was becoming tedious and downright undesirable, albeit my first love, our relationship was floundering with no reconciliation in sight. Writing was always therapeutic for me and allowed me to communicate much more efficiently than I’ve ever been able to do verbally. People who could not really relate to me when we spoke, could somehow understand the meaning behind my jumbled verbal communication after reading my words.
Truthfully, I write what my heart and spirit feel at the time which is why long ago I decided against becoming a journalist; the words are not always available and topics cannot be chosen for me.
Somewhere along the way I was convinced that writing should be a “business” for me because I have a way with words (whatever that means). I was desperate to leave the corporate world so I began writing what people claimed to be hot topics. I even learned how to use hash tags (well sort of, oh well) but it was difficult to create content and after a while I pretty much stopped writing all together. Uninspired, suffering from a creative drought, not being true to myself and still not gaining the readership “they” claimed I would if only I would change my content and stop using “fancy words” (what the hell are fancy words?), my relationship with writing seemed to be ending…
Although I’d invested most of my life to the one thing I could always count on, I was ready to give up; why bother no one reads anyway? As always, the Universe had other plans and recently, I’ve been receiving the same message to my question, “What is my purpose and how can I fulfill this purpose?” Write, share yourself, inspire, encourage, support…Do not focus on likes/dislikes, promotional gimmicks or the number of “followers” you gain/lose, just write! The ones who can learn from your words will find them. Just write, write from your heart; use the gift you were given and you will fulfill your purpose. Over and over again the Universe delivered this message to me but until now I could not connect all of the dots.
It was difficult to stay motivated without support, inspiration, feedback (good, bad, indifferent; it’s all important). Now I understand, what matters most is for ME to support my work, never stop searching for inspiration and keep myself motivated. Well writing and I have rekindled our love affair and the blockage in my heart has been scraped away…
It’s never been about anyone else, writing has always been for me; it’s my thing, my very first and truest love. When I write all is right with the world; when I’m done whatever troubles I may have had are released at the end. Writing is my comfort, my therapy, my soul food, my expression, my friend… Giving up our relationship is PREPOSTEROUS but it just seemed easier than trying to figure out what the hell was going on and cheaper than visiting a therapist (LoL).
I share this to say, be true to yourself; don’t deny yourself anything that feels right because it may not fit into what the rest of the world is doing. Denying any part of yourself, ignoring messages of your spirit, your heart will kill you slowly. We are not meant to live lesser lives; we have been created to flourish, use our gifts to create positive ripples in this world and most of all to fulfill our purpose.
As always, Love, Peace & Blessings…
SereneNSassySoul

Gratitude for Seniors-Elders

To the Senior/Elder population that sometimes becomes neglected…
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To Ms Barbara (who may never read this but I want to celebrate her anyway) I am so grateful for your kindness and compassion.
Although I wish she wasn’t still in the workforce, I’m grateful for the opportunity to know and love her. More importantly, as much as she still has going on in her life, she takes time to make sure that I’m ok. Yesterday she stayed around and gave me a jump because my car battery died. In the rain with no questions asked she simply offer to help me and took charge of the situation (no room for me to say no LoL). Once my care was “alive”again she hung around to make sure I was ok to drive off.
Today, as soon as she arrived, she checked in with me to make sure I was ok and that my car was ok. She is amazing and it troubles me that others don’t seem to have much patience with her or do what they can to make her days easier. She’s got me though; I will do anything I can to make sure that SHE is ok.
To all of the Seniors/Elders I spoke with this week, who have complimented me on being kind and patient because many people have not been with them, I appreciate your kind words and it’s always my pleasure to assist you. Please don’t ever allow anyone to treat you less than what you deserve. You are NOT inferior and you are NOT forgotten.
People with little or no patience with Seniors anger me because when they become a Senior you can bet they will expect to be treated with compassion, respect and kindness. Before you make a conscious decision to be rude/impatient with an Elder, perhaps you should think of how you want someone to treat your parents and or grandparents. Perhaps you can try to understand that yes they may be a bit slower mentally and/or physically but that does not mean they are not worthy of your time, your energy.
I will always go to bat for Seniors/Elders even if they are a bit crotchety at times, heck they’ve earned it! Be kind, be gentle, be patient, be helpful because they DESERVE for you to be.
Perhaps my affinity for Senior/Elders is because I grew up without grandparents so it seems I’ve adopted every Senior/Elder. I have tremendous respect for them and a genuine love and concern for them. I don’t get riled up often but when it comes to Seniors/Elders, I’m a fierce protector and caregiver, so know that if I catch you being anything less than honorable with them, I WILL tear you a new one!
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As always, Love, Peace & Blessings…
SereneNSassySoul

Energy of the Ocean

I was blessed to connect with the Ocean on Friday and my spirit has been in mourning since walking away. I felt so peaceful and the energy shared with me by the Ocean was intoxicating…literally intoxicating. I felt woozy but in a good way; indescribable really but it was a powerful feeling.

At the beach (a place I don’t frequent) you have access to all four elements, Water, Earth, Fire (Sun) Air (breeze from the Ocean). My Spirit Brother has directed me to the beach several times this year but I put it off because… (insert excuse here LoL) During my visit I understood why he directed me to the beach; he knows me better than most (not easy to accomplish). It was a beautiful, desperately needed energetic experience.

But now… I feel empty or as if something is missing…I hate whining and complaining about how I feel but this time I feel clueless about how I can make things right.

Seems as if nothing feels all the way right as far as making a decision about what to do with myself, my life but it’s extremely important for me to make a decision NOW.

I miss home…I really miss home and the peace it affords me…the connections…it’s beautiful and comforting; faith whispers, “You will be home again very soon” and for this I am grateful.

Realize knowing and KNOWING are not exactly the same. I think sometimes knowing is painful or frustrating when you seem to have difficulty taking action using what you know; you know?

Love, Peace & Blessings,

SereneNSassySoul

 

Keep Going…

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This morning I awakened with a sadness words cannot explain; it’s something I just felt. As a few tears fell from my eyes, I still wasn’t sure what brought on this feeling. As the tears fell I heard a voice say “fight this!” In the next moment, tears stopped and I agreed with “the voice”. I sat up straight and decided to reclaim my power; closing my eyes and taking a deep breathe. When I reopened my eyes, I felt renewed and strong enough to get through this New Day.
As a reminder of my personal power, I saw the number 8 a few times before leaving home this morning; just one of the ways the Universe speaks to me. Here is the spiritual/numerology/metaphysical meaning of the number 8:
8…Strength symbolizes inner strength and determination. Reversed it means lack of confidence.
I am appreciative of every message, every sign, every lesson, every blessing the Universe grants me; each has assisted me with learning who I am and has allowed me to reconnect with the deepest parts of myself.
This lifetime has not been easy and I’m still not where I imagined being by now, but it is clear that I have to continue my journey because I refuse to live in vain
Creatively I’ve been in a state of stagnation…uninspired, discouraged at times and often filled with anxiety but unlike times before now, I can’t give up even if I wanted to. It feels as if my spirit just won’t allow me to give up so I just keep doing what I can to fulfill my purpose.
Most of this lifetime I’ve spent learning and experiencing on my own. I’ve battled loneliness at times but because I’m mostly introverted and crave solitude, bouts with loneliness are few and far in between. I’m sure “My Tribe” is on the way and then I will have the support, encouragement, inspiration and sense of belonging that I’ve been searching for all of this lifetime; until then I have me! Wow that feels good to state because not long ago…loving and accepting myself was simply too hard to do.
As always, I am sharing this with you to let you know that you are never alone and to remind you to always honor your spirit, your heart and most of all…NEVER give up! Continue your journey even if you have to change directions. Also pay attention to signs and messages of the Universe, they will always point you in the RIGHT direction (don’t overthink or try to interpret them, truth reveals itself when you are truly ready).
Sending you great Love, Peace & Blessings….
SereneNSassySoul
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